December 17, 2008
· Filed under Uncategorized · Tagged daughter, mom
isang yakap, isang halik, mga tawanan at kulitan… masasayang nagdaan namin ni nicole habang kami’y nagkukwentuhan. mga bagay na kelan may hindi mapapalitan ng kahit na magkakanong halaga.
sa mga panahong nagkakasakit siya, hindi maiwasang mag alala. napupuyat, nag aabang sa bawat oras sa gabing natutulog siya kung hindi ba siya pinagpapawisan, o nilalamig at dapat na kumutan.
marami pala talaga responsibilidad ang isang ina, habang buhay na pag gabay, pagmamahal, pag aaruga… bawal mag resign sa bokasyong pinasukan…ang pagiging ulirang ina.
masarap, mahirap, ala dapat kapaguran, at puno ng pang uunawa, lalo na pagdumarating sa panahong malakas ang kakulitan, pasaway at sabay badtrip din ako, lagot! “magiging Beast na si mommy”, ang palagi kong sambit kay nicole. upang makinig na siya at huwag ako tuluyang magalit. mahirap din kasi makagalitan kasi ako din ang maglalambing pagkatapos. may panahon naman na nauuna na siya mag sabi: “sorry na po mommy.” at talaga namang matutunaw ang puso mo at mawawala nadamang init ng ulo.
Ang magkaroon ng isang anak ay isang napaka gandang regalo, kaya’t pinag iingatan ko hanggat kaya ko…nagiging matatag ako, at inspirado sa bawat araw na kapiling ko ang aking unica hija.
December 16, 2008
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Look at her, at her age never thought she’ll be thinking of things that could make her mom happy again… UUUUyyyy like: na magkaroon si mommy ng new Boyfriend. LOL!
she noticed every struggle i have been through this past months, and she sees how thin i became and never saw me smiling like i was always before… i may have not shared every little detail of my love life with her dad, but surely i think she understood…
simple girl
By simply embracing me and continuously reminding me that she loves me with a kiss, helped me be whole again…she was the first one to comfort me, and in her actions and words makes me strong again and realize life does not end in a heartache, it may be a broken family as others could see, but for me even if its just the two of us right now (Mom and daughter), we could still be a whole.
as i always believe that there is a rainbow always after the rain… someday, somehow, somewhere, someone will come into our life and make us feel that we were never incomplete. It’s just that he came a little later…LOL!:)
but surely is willing to accept whatever is right here.
We will be happy, healthy, build our dreams, and eventually make them all come true.
Thank you to the person who makes me smile again, makes me inspired to wake up each day… I don’t really know if you know who you are… please stay…:)
December 16, 2008
· Filed under Uncategorized · Tagged Pain, Strength, Trials
Sweet Smiles
it has been 5months now since i started mending my broken heart…never thought what happens on tv telenovelas could also happen to me…now, i am stronger, and happier in my life. i have learned how to forgive and let go of the only person i loved for the past 8 years. Now my focus is my daughter to mold her as a better person, God fearing, happy as always, and full of dreams that in due time, soon she’ll be able to achieve.
she’s still is undergoing her chemotherapy and results are getting better each and every check-up. Thank God He never left me, not even for a moment in my life. He listens to my prayers and i am so grateful and truly is blessed.
