isang yakap, isang halik, mga tawanan at kulitan… masasayang nagdaan namin ni nicole habang kami’y nagkukwentuhan. mga bagay na kelan may hindi mapapalitan ng kahit na magkakanong halaga.
sa mga panahong nagkakasakit siya, hindi maiwasang mag alala. napupuyat, nag aabang sa bawat oras sa gabing natutulog siya kung hindi ba siya pinagpapawisan, o nilalamig at dapat na kumutan.
marami pala talaga responsibilidad ang isang ina, habang buhay na pag gabay, pagmamahal, pag aaruga… bawal mag resign sa bokasyong pinasukan…ang pagiging ulirang ina.
masarap, mahirap, ala dapat kapaguran, at puno ng pang uunawa, lalo na pagdumarating sa panahong malakas ang kakulitan, pasaway at sabay badtrip din ako, lagot! “magiging Beast na si mommy”, ang palagi kong sambit kay nicole. upang makinig na siya at huwag ako tuluyang magalit. mahirap din kasi makagalitan kasi ako din ang maglalambing pagkatapos. may panahon naman na nauuna na siya mag sabi: “sorry na po mommy.” at talaga namang matutunaw ang puso mo at mawawala nadamang init ng ulo.
Ang magkaroon ng isang anak ay isang napaka gandang regalo, kaya’t pinag iingatan ko hanggat kaya ko…nagiging matatag ako, at inspirado sa bawat araw na kapiling ko ang aking unica hija.

Look at her, at her age never thought she’ll be thinking of things that could make her mom happy again… UUUUyyyy like: na magkaroon si mommy ng new Boyfriend. LOL!
she noticed every struggle i have been through this past months, and she sees how thin i became and never saw me smiling like i was always before… i may have not shared every little detail of my love life with her dad, but surely i think she understood…

simple girl

By simply embracing me and continuously reminding me that she loves me with a kiss, helped me be whole again…she was the first one to comfort me, and in her actions and words makes me strong again and realize life does not end in a heartache, it may be a broken family as others could see, but for me even if its just the two of us right now (Mom and daughter), we could still be a whole.
as i always believe that there is a rainbow always after the rain… someday, somehow, somewhere, someone will come into our life and make us feel that we were never incomplete. It’s just that he came a little later…LOL!:)
but surely is willing to accept whatever is right here.
We will be happy, healthy, build our dreams, and eventually make them all come true.

Thank you to the person who makes me smile again, makes me inspired to wake up each day… I don’t really know if you know who you are… please stay…:)

Sweet Smiles

it has been 5months now since i started mending my broken heart…never thought what happens on tv telenovelas could also happen to me…now, i am stronger, and happier in my life. i have learned how to forgive and let go of the only person i loved for the past 8 years. Now my focus is my daughter to mold her as a better person, God fearing, happy as always, and full of dreams that in due time, soon she’ll be able to achieve.
she’s still is undergoing her chemotherapy and results are getting better each and every check-up. Thank God He never left me, not even for a moment in my life. He listens to my prayers and i am so grateful and truly is blessed.

masarap pala talaga pag marami kang kaibigan… maraming kalokohan, kakulitan at mahihingan ng payo kapag gulong-gulo ka na sa mga problema mo sa buhay mo. masuwerte ako at nakilala ko ang mga taong nakapaligid ngayon sa akin mga nagbibigay ng inspirasyon at pag asa… karamay ko sa aking pakikipaglaban sa buhay.

528 BEAUTIES DORMITORY

sila ang mga nakilala ko sa “dorm 528 beauties” kung tawagin ng mga boarders at tagapamahala nito.

donna, saly, clodz, gay, jaiane, katrina 1, katrina 2….. ay ilan sa mga larawang nababanaag nyo sa itaas, si cherrie, mae, nina, hazel, marie fe ay mga kaibigan ko na di ko nakalap ang larawan…nakalulungkot man sana’y makapag ugnayan pa rin ako sa kanila.

palibhasa’y pang babae lamang ang aming dormitoryo ang mga kadalagahang ito ay nakilala ko habang ako’y nasa kolehiyo, masarap kasama, kausap, kabiruan, mga maalalahanin lalo na kapag kaarawan dahil handa sila sa mga sorpresa…kapag may gimmick night naman, kahit na puyatan naku energized pa rin kinabukasan.

CARDONA

sa iskwelahan at sa una kung kinuhang kurso , duon naman ay nakilala ko si fritzie, ang nagpasyal sa akin sa kanilang hometown cardona sa rizal, duon naranasan kong maging muse for the first time ng isang volleyball team, pumarada ako sa kanilang bayan nakakatawa ala masyado naka kikilala sa akin. basta all smile ako…hehehe…

si fairy, kapatid yan ni fritzie sista’h ko rin. si mean, eneyd, efcel, sendly, phe, rizza at micoy… ilan lamang sa nakilala kong kaibigan sa cardona, madalas ko kasama sa tawanan at kwentuhan, meron din masasarap na kainan at inuman. may sight seeing sa tabing dagat… emote! kung emote! marami pa kong nais idagdag sa mga larawang ito ngunit dahil sa distansya ang ilan ay hindi ko na nakakaugnayan.

PILILLA

di nagtagal lumipat ako ng kurso at nakilala ko naman si yeth-yeth, malugod nya rin ako pinakilala sa mga kabarkada nya sa pililla at agad din naman nila ko tinanggap sa kanilang matatag na samahan… madalas nila ko isama sa mga outing sa kanilang lugar, marami rin tawanan, iyakan, samaan ng loob na di naglaon ay nagkasundo-sundo rin naman para na rin kami magkakapatid.

marami pa sila actually, ngunit napaka hirap mangalap ng larawan na magpapakita kung gaano kabubuting kaibigan sila naging sa akin… lahat sila ay nagbigay ng inspirasyon at tumulong mabuo ang mga pangarap ko sa buhay, sila bukod sa aking pamilya ang lubos din nakapag bibigay ngiti sa aking mga labi.

may kanya kanya man kaming buhay na tinatahak sa ngayon, hiwahiwalay man kaming umaabot sa aming mga pangarap, sana’y ipag adya ng ating Panginoon at idulot na maabot natin ang mga mithiin nating ito sa buhay.

maraming salamat mga kaibigan, pagpalain tayong lahat!!!

hanggang sa muling pagkikita… nasa atin pa rin ang huling tawa!!! hahaha…

lahat kayo na nakilala ko ay mananatiling yaman sa aking alaala.

paalala: ang mga hindi mapalad na naisama sa larawan ay hindi sinasadya hindi makita… at ang mga pangalang hindi nabanggit ay hindi nangangahulugang hindi na tayo magkaibigan. salamat!

A daughter is born, Monday 15th of September year 2003 at 3:59pm Philippine time. Pretty, healthy, smart, and strong willed girl.

Until a big challenge came to our life, that is when she was diagnosed with Acute Lymphocytic Leukemia year 2007 15th of February at the age of 3years and 5mos a young angel is going to have a big fight of surviving life.

Imagining my precious daughter undergoing a long term period of medication… chemotherapy… injections… blood test even hair loss. It really breaks my heart… But life does not stop here, in fact we are just beginning.

Sad that her dad had to be far most of the time. Knowing that her dad love’s her make her complete and looks forward day by day that in time they could have time to play and hug each other again.

Seeing my daughter undergo so much at her age makes me want or wish that it was me instead of her that is suffering with such illness. Thinking every now and then how it all happened…knowing that in time blood test results fluctuates with just a cold, cough or fever.

Eventually that is only when i knew why cancer patients wear masks most of the time… due to that is they have a very low immune system caused by the chemotherapy and drugs they consume to get well.

We are still on therapy and eventually hoping and praying with all our relatives and friends that she will recover and be well soon.

To all who continues to support us i am grateful and thankful that all God’s blessings come and passes through you…

to reach our precious

angel Nicole Rose.

God Bless Us All!